We’re month three into the QT and shit was hitting the fan at home. Both within myself and the physical location where my body is.
I learned about emotional healing through chakra realignment some time last year and try to keep to a regular monthly practice with Kassandra. Her affirmations and techniques have been helpful not only to me but to the people I mass send her videos to.
This month in May I decided to experiment with a thematic healing routine where I address each chakra according to the day of the week.
Monday – root
Tuesday – sacral
Wednesday – solar plexus
Thursday – heart
Friday – throat
Saturday – third eye
Sunday – crown
My over zealous desire magnet trap wanted me to release a video every day about this process but I soon learned that I was still healing from “too much process sharing” trauma. I almost hate that word as much as I hate what it has done. continues to do. This daily yoga practice was paired with a menu that targets the chakras. I was also unable to commit to making food every day.
Week 1: Anger
Week 2: Forgiveness
Week 3: Kindness
Week 4: Love
Currently, i am at the end of week 3.
Attuning to the vibrations of each day in relation to the theme of the week has been helpful for in-depth shadow work because it provides a frame of reference for when I spiral into doubt and self hatred. For instance, how can I be kinder to myself on day 4 week 2 : heart chakra in relation to forgiveness – who do i need to forgive, why is that important, how is love possible in these moments, and if it is, is it really even love? How do I forgive someone who hurts me the same way? How do I forgive myself allowing that to happen? Again, is that really love?
We are in the midst of a cosmic shift. The time that we’ve been given to grapple and get messy with ourselves and maybe with each other is sacred. I am understanding this especially in moments when I want to run away but find myself unable to. We are being asked to confront something that we’ve been avoiding. Every moment that I choose presence over escape is growth. It doesn’t matter how painful or small it might seem. Like choosing to look up at the mirror instead of down after I flush and wash my hands.
This video is a quick glimpse into some of the revelations that came up during the first week.
“Who the Fuck is Cho Chang?” continues to be a holding ground for these ideas.